According to google, she's "cool fb profile pics for girls with guitar."
Sarcasm aside, "who" do you mean?
I simply mean a special girl in your life
Ah! Well then I have a story.
Last night, I saw on my phone that I had a missed call from an unknown number. Now, I had been trying to get back into contact with this girl whom I used to know. We used to bond over FB Messenger because she was learning Swedish, the language of her ancestry, and I like to think of myself as knowledgeable on languages and linguistics. When I went to sleep that night, I was filled with a blissful fantasy that the unknown number was the girl I had been trying to get the number of, and that we would hit it off and go on to have a wonderful relationship. She would teach me Swedish, I would stroke her long blonde hair while she rested her head on my lap, we would watch anime together…it was beautiful.
The next day I decided to call this number back, to see if it had been my flaxen-haired Nordic goddess all along. A shrewd woman with an Indian accent picks up the phone.
>Are you aware you can claim compensations on your credit card payment?
Bitterly, I said 'No thank you, goodbye' and hung up. Oh well. Maybe another time…
I get it.
Well, almost. I'm definitely not gay, but that makes it more frustrating for me, because I can't stand most women's personalities. It seems like too many of them are devious, manipulative, unfaithful, and critical.
Always, I see my friends and their relationship issues, and I worry about how I would react if I ever found myself in such a situation. I used to constantly wish for any romantic attachment. I still do to an extent, but it has mellowed out; I'm starting to think a relationship is more trouble than it's worth.
I think the best thing is to live for yourself. I'm constantly trying to improve myself, to make myself a man I can be proud of. If I ever meet that special girl, I would hope she will be proud of me, too. I don't think that day is going to come. Perhaps it's not meant for me.
First thing, I'm sorry for the broken sushi rolls here and wish you the best, whatever that would be in your case. >>687>You have to love yourself, before you can love another.
I don't want to pointlessly argue or prove you wrong, but I don't think this is always the case. I've been with a girl for almost 6 years and we didn't really have any major problems, like ever. We lived in the same room for 5 years. Last year I discovered something about myself that made us break up, but also helped me to accept myself and we're still friends, we just couldn't continue the relationship if I were to pursue the life I want to live. Before, I hated so much stuff about me that I doubt I appeared on more than 5 photos during like 10 years and none of them made their way online and I used to hide my face when I went out (sometimes even if I just went to buy food); I also met my friends THREE times during the whole time we lived together, and I used to self-harm. I still think that we loved each other, even if I disliked myself at best.
There is no girl.
When I start catching the feels for someone, it's awful: I overthink all my actions and everything I say around them, I carve out this idealized image of who they are, and frankly I'm just not rational.
I've never been in a relationship and I can't see myself in one. I'm too selfish: I always think of myself first. I don't think I'd be able to set aside enough time and thought for someone else, and that's not fair to them.
There isn't a her. I think I only spoke to two girls outside my family in the whole of 2015. Admittedly it's difficult to meet anyone as a reclusive computer science student.
Even if I did meet someone who I liked I would have absolutely no idea how to act on my feelings. I can barely hold a conversation with my few close friends so the prospect of taking the reigns in a social situation like that kind of terrifies me.
I've always been fine with people being single and fapping only to 2D or whatever, but the SHE IS MAI WAIFOO HURR FUK IRL part is cringy. Not trying to say anybody here is like that, but I just wanted to get it off my chest.
I don't have one anymore, hell I don't even remember the last time I even felt love at all.
Is this a bad thing?
I'm not really interested in a particular girl, there's so many cuties that I have equally nothing to do with. But a girlfriend would be nice
I live with my girlfriend. She's playing Heroes of the Storm next to me.
I live with my girlfriend as well, but she's just shitposting on 4chan's /a/ at the moment. Her figure collection puts mine to shame.
How long have you two been living together?
Before you do that, consider anime conventions. It's how I met said gf and how several of my friends met theirs. Just look for a qt who's cosplaying from a series you like and start talking about it with them. It's immediately something you two have in common, so it works great for breaking the ice and getting conversation going.
Trust me, I never thought I'd get a gf in my entire life until I went to a con.
I'm going for the crazy uncle myself, but not so crazy as to not be allowed to see the nieces and nephews.
You never understand it until it happens to you. Then it's completely life-changing.
went out on what i thought was a date with "her" today. we've hung out before, we do radio work together. we got pizza, hit up thrift stores and record shops, and went to the movie theater. had kinda high hopes for a relationship with this girl, but she very casually dropped that she had a boyfriend, so i'm disappointed.
trying to look at it on the bright side, though. i still had a great time with a great person, and just because we aren't dating doesn't mean we can't have good times together.
so now i'm sitting in my room at an ungodly hour, listening to an earl sweatshirt record i bought, trying not to be too bummed out. always a chance i misheard her, i suppose.
She owed me 30 bucks that she promised to pay me back. So I sent her to jail.
I had a "her" for a while we had a really good thing too, then we fought alot. after that we had a shitty thing and now i dont have her anymore.
sometimes i miss her, happens i guess and im glad it happened in the end. went through a bad batch of drinking and self loathing but i just started studying again, being around crowds makes me super fucking uncomfortable and general anxiety fucking sucks but i think im gonna make it.
you can do it Sushi Roll. I had a similar relationship, it all when to hell, but a few months later I found a girl who I honestly cannot believe is real. She's a cute weeb girl, and one of the most kind human beings I've ever met. I didn't think it would happen to me, and I promise it can happen to you. Good luck friend!
Welp here goes
I went out this saint valentine's hoping to run into her on the street. She has a bf so I was unsure, I knew they'd be together so I told myself if they were, I'd just ignore her. Found here. They were. But I couldn't help it and greeted them. I'd finished my chores and they didn't have much to do so they invited me for a frink. We went to a popular cafeteria were she and I had spent last year's valentine.
Last year I also knew she had a bf, the same guy btw, but when I found her she calmly told me they had problems and eventually she implied they'd decided to take some time apart. I had several chances to get her yet I never did. By nivember I told myself (when she'd broke up with her bf for good – or so it seeed), I told myself "next time I get some time aline with her… She'll be mine. Next time her ex came out of nowhere and they got back together.
I'd kept thinking of her, because she'd been the only grill who kind of tolerated me and didnt expect me to follow dumb social protocols.
There's no shame in being nice and at least trying, as long as you like the girl for who she is in your heart of hearts and aren't being desperate (don't be desperate
). If so, try God damn it. Take it from me, it's better to be rejected than to never know… It's a terrible feeling to look back and wonder what could have been; dogging intangibility of no resolve to your question because the moment's passed. Puff. Gone.
When you see the target, shoot. Romance is a game of opportunity.
It feels good to step out of your comfort zone, get bruised, bloody, and knocked around. At worst, failure is a learning experience. You'll be a better person for it. Don't delude yourself with best-case scenarios, either: That's a special circle of Hell. Life's all about the experience. It's an aggregate of experiences, both good and bad.
Good luck, Sushi Roll.
Well, blog part 3, just typing it out helps putting it in perspective.
She asked me for recs on good short stories(I talked her ears off about some of my favourites last time I walked her home), I recced her a few, offered to lend her one, she accepted gladly (not a big deal, I have repeats on that specific edition of that book)
Hopefully this will be a way of meeting her again, still intend to ask her out but we still have the final assignment so dont want to make things awkward around the other members of the group
I communicate with few people outside of sushichan, lainchan, or email/irc.
I've chosen to be celibate for now.
nothing wrong with that Sushi Roll!
We had been hanging out for awhile, I thought she was vey intelligent and fun to be around, but never saw her as anything more than someone I really cared about. Then my now exgf started making some mean comments about the possibilities of other men behind my back, so I ended things immediately. Three days later I'd fallen in love with this girl and began the most amazing trip of my life. I didn't need drugs anymore after her, I wasn't depressed everyday, I had a wonderful girl who was always willing to listen and understand and share her wonderful mind with me. We went everywhere, were together all the time, always arguing about things but productively in a way that helped us build our communication and share all of our thoughts with each other, until I had to leave for military service in Singapore. Our one year anniversary was two months ago, and even though I haven't seen her in person in 6 months, we still spend every moment we can talking to each other. I love her with all my heart and she's the reason I've become a much better person than I ever could have been. 16 more months until my service ends.
are you me?
How's it going me? Finished that book you just bought, me?
our relationship is rushed. She lives outside my city and what with work and studies we barely have time to see each other once a week. Previous to her I was incredibly lonely, it having been years since my last relationship. That break up is a whole story in itself, but back to what I was saying, My loneliness clouded my judgement and I rushed into a relationship without thinking of the consequences. We have barely anything in common, she's not as pretty as she first seemed and she's very clingy. But the sex is amazing, kinks are one of the few things we have in common. Mostly I'm scared that if we break up I'll never find anyone else, I'll go back to that crushing loneliness of before and it'll be worse for knowing that I had a chance to change it and failed. I know I'm a terrible person for leading her on but I just don't know what to do.
However, there is a second Her. Now she's something. Classic friendzone story, there's not much to tell but to sum up, she's always there and I fell for her hard at first. When I found out she had a boyfriend I was absolutely heartbroken but I still clung on to the hope that one day I'd be the only one. Eventually my feelings for her were taking over my life and I made the tough decision to almost entirely cut her off. I've done it so many times to so many people, my dad, mum, step mum, countless friends and exes, I've gotten pretty good at it. I can make it seem completely natural until all communication ends. But yesterday I caught myself thinking about her after a movie character's hair reminded me of her and I gave in and messaged her. I still can't bring myself to tell her my feelings but I'm almost certain she knows and keeps me around just to entertain her. But I guess that's all I'm good for so I should be thankful.
well aren't you special. Take her out for sushi afterwards.
That fucking hurts man.
Ah, I'm nothing special. High school dropout turned CS student. If I can do it, anyone can.
Funny you mention that, we actually ate sushi in our underwear afterwards.
HOLY FUCKING DONKEY BALLS. IS THIS AUTOMATED? AM I A HUMAN YET?
CAN I BE A REAL BOY?
OH great. That fucking posts. Anyway. I like you did that thing where you leave that educational facility ya know. And it's been say 8 months now and I started working on the alternative method that is the GED. Akin to you I love computers but do not want to do that higher education thing either because fuck it amirite. So give me suggestions oh wise one. Did I do it? Did I managed to avoid the fucking "LOOKS AUTOMATED LELELE XDDDDDDDD" thing? Fuck me. Sorry for the cancer :^)
Sushi Roll, do you go on the IRC? I would be more than happy to talk about my experiences. Here's the thing, I am not doing anything amazing, in fact, I'm pretty shitty at doing much of anything at all. Currently learning python and some arduino shit, I want to make a mini-computer that runs visual basic. Besides that and looking for a job, I am pretty much a dropout lol. I actually don't know if I will be going to college (because of money, but also because I am just not that big of a fan). I am getting my BA online, and it costs me a hell of a lot less than actually attending a college campus. Anyhow, maybe I'll run into you on the IRC, as I would love to chat.
Oh sorry I neglected to mention that I don't know what this "automated" thing you speak of is? Enlighten me plz?
Looks like he had some problems with his posts being discarded as spam, maybe.